2009-07-04 - 10:29 p.m.

It seemed such a long Saturday. I was late in the morning for work.=( And I sprained my left ankle.=(( Luckily not serious to the extent that it is swollen or anything, it just hurts when I walk or massage it.=) After work went to SengKang library with Mama and Kui, and had dinner at compass point then walked home. So at last I am back home sitting down reading. And I came online to renew my library books.

I was still thinking what the feeling is, and suddenly with the help of yesterday's incident, I knew what it is. It is the bitterness. The bitterness of how I like something but I know that I will not be able to get my hand on and obtain it, and so I painfully need to avoid thinking about it; the bitterness of how I know that I cannot be compared to others who have the talents that I wish I could have...You know, I am quite happy that I can get to realize what I am feeling. I was still thinking about it, brooding over it, and suddenly I know how I can express this feeling. Though it is not a good feeling.

Ah, suddenly another don't-know-how-to-describe feeling arised.-.-

I think Kui and I both have the same problem. We will cry for stuff that aren't worth crying. *This excludes family issues.

Alright, I guess I should go library after work tomorrow. I always think of who I should date out and go library with, but going library for reading seems quite an individual activity. Moreover, chatting is not allowed in the library.T_T

Follow my heart. So should I follow the part of my heart which says "assure yourself with a job", or the part of my heart which tells me to go the normal way?

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